lots to do.

its been a while since i last posted and i figured i better update. 

i have been working a lot lately and that has me stressing because not everything is getting done. i have so much to do in so little time. 

*christmas shop [still]
*shop for clothes/shoes/hair accessories for portraits

those are the main things to get completed this week and next. this friday we are taking our first time EVER family portraits. and i'm actually really nervous about it. i'm worried the pictures wont turn out because of either the kids not cooperating and the outfits not looking well. this is probably why i have never done them professionally. its too stressful!

i have to christmas shop still. and theres never any time or enough money it seems. i'm so ready for the economy to be back on track so that my life and family can be back on track. 

2 weeks ago a commercial was shot at my work and today the commercial man brought in the demo of it and its good but i dont like the views of me. the camera makes me look fat. i know i know they say the cameras put on like 10 lbs but still. ewww! this commercial is gonna be seen on 4 or 5 different channels! the man in charge seriously looks like al pacino. its so cool.  anyway, today he offered me a job. basically i would go around to businesses to see if they need help with advertising and hopefully sell them on a commercial. it sounds like a great job and i would work with really awesome people! we'll see though. 

and one last thing that has me STRESSSSSSSSSiNG out. my 26th bday is coming up soon and i'm freaking out. i'm not ready. i dont want to get any older. i seriously dread it. sounds stupid i know. but i'm not looking forward to getting old and wrinkly and not able to move around to do for myself. yes, i know i'm still young but the closer i get to 30 just means i'm closer to 40 and then 50 and then 60 and then...and then. lol. nevermind! so ya, not excited!

*****on a fun note***** the kids and i went sledding last night. omg. it was amazing. i havent done that in YEARS. YEARS. it was scary yet so thrilling at the same time. alex and anabelle had a blast but they started complaining of being cold. so we eventually left. i'm so doing that again when it snows a lot. guarantee it!