[el rancho]

so i start a new job tomorrow @ [el rancho] as a waitress. never been one before so this will be very entertaining. i am working at the ranch on the weekends and hoping that one of the 10 jobs i applied for call me for the week days. we need the money desperately right now, drew is on 3 day work weeks and its rough. i'm hoping that this rough road will be over soon. although, there is talk of layoffs at [spirit] and drew is freaking out about it. we are both freaking out. the economy is not getting any better and neither are our jobs. its frustrating to say the least. we have a family to support and raise and its almost next to impossible to do with this 3 day work week crap. we barely survived before....now....its getting REALLY scary!

living with out gas for 2 weeks was enough for me. worrying how we are going to feed the kids is getting emotionally draining. i dont know what we'll do if our electric is shut off or our water is shut off. our phones are off at the moment, which really stinks. i miss my phone! here i am babbling about how bad we have it and really we dont. there are more people in worse situations i should feel lucky. and of course, i do, i have my husband and my kids and a roof. its just seriously, depressing. i hope in 20 years my children are not in our shoes. i hope they are in college and getting a degree for their future. i would never wish anyone to have to stress this much EVER.

well now that i have blabbed. i need to go. the kiddos are making dirt pies outside getting all dirty, messy and ick! hope everyone is getting by okay!